Imperfect

Life sucks sometimes.

Sorry for those of you who are enjoying your life and believe it's all you could ever imagine. I'm not trying to bring you down or anything. I'm just trying to be completely honest. And to do that, I must say that sometimes, life really does suck.

Being back at school, I thought everything would be great. I would be able to be with my friends again; we would be able to go on crazy, college adventures; I would be at my home away from home. I thought life would be perfect.

That was my first mistake.

Perfection does not exist in our world. Let me repeat that:

PERFECTION DOES NOT EXIST IN OUR WORLD.

This past week has reminded me of that. The first few weeks of school were great. I got reunited with friends; I met new friends; I was happy with how my life was. This week, though has been tough on me. I had my first chemistry exam and I was stressing way too much about it. (Like, stressing to the point where I wasn't sleeping at night.) I also got my nose pierced a week ago and I tried to hide it from my parents. Obviously, that didn't go over well and I didn't speak to them all week, putting more stress and guilt on my shoulders. Then, I received a life-changing message from someone who I believed to be one of my best friends. Basically they told me that our entire friendship was a lie and he/she (not saying who) lied to me and played games on me throughout the entire relationship between us. And that I was the fault that this other person they were "involved with" broke up with them. Safe to say, I was devastated and because I wasn't speaking to my parents, I didn't feel I could go to them with my troubles. So, I let it consume me.

I know I shouldn't let things like that consume me, but I did. I cried myself to sleep the past few nights and let rage and revenge take over my thoughts. I wanted them to hurt like I was hurting.

Stupid. I know.

But everything that happened this week has reminded me that life is not perfect. It is nowhere near perfect. No matter how much we want it to be.

We live in a broken and fallen world. Because of Adam and Eve, we were condemned to a world of hatred, loathing and rage. Satan wants us to give into all of that. He wants us to stumble and fall into his grasp.

However, God wants more for us. So much more. He has put us in this world to spread His Word and to give Him the glory. This is so that when we die, we will go to a perfect life: Heaven. Heaven is very real and very perfect. No sickness and no sadness. A place to rejoice in the Lord always.

We must get through the troubles of this world as well as confessing Christ as Lord, in order to receive the ultimate salvation: an eternity in Heaven with our Lord.

We have the choice: Heaven or Hell. To rise above the troubles or to stumble and let Satan win. If I'm being honest with you, I'd rather Satan not win anything.

This past week has taught me so much in trusting the Lord with the struggles in my life. I just need to hand everything over to Him and let Him handle it. Besides, its His will, not mine that should be done.

So just, remember, even though life may not be perfect, we have a Father in Heaven who is perfect and who sent His son to die for us so that we may live forever in Heaven with Him.

Take a listen to the following songs. These sum up everything I've been feeling and everything that I've learned in the past few days. Most of them brought me to tears as I realized how true they are:

"Perfect People" -Natalie Grant
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFDl-KWu-XQ

"Yahweh" -Chris Tomlin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2tNglkYWGg

"How He Loves" -David Crowder Band (this is my favorite version of the song. Brings me to tears every time.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCunuL58odQ

"Happy Day" -Fee
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMQt3XlNroQ


Go out. Live your life. Be disciples.

In His love.